Hopeless

Last week i was went for my 1st job interview in my life. Actually everything has been in well planned, my transport, my salary usage...all gone! :'( 2 days ago, my bro in law told me, he had talk to his boss about my salary and his boss was actually decide to take up me on this position. However, yesterday a bad news that i get from him was that ppl which want to resign is still under contract, he cant resign unless he compensate for company. My bro in law told me, he and his boss already approve to let him resign, but another boss deny. Because of him, my plan is gone, my hope is hopeless. I was pissed off, why every time the same case was happen on me, they gimme a hope, but the result i get is hopeless. sigh ~ what to do?!! now noone i can rely anymore, i just have to apply other job by myself. when only i can get a job? ! I really don't know, i don't want to waste my time to stay at home everyday and do nothing. I want to learn something, i just want to get some experience, i want to fight for my future because i was getting older soon.

chow for now... :(

感触

很开心，君君终于得赏所愿，有情人终成眷属。。。希望他会好好保护她，不要伤害她。 虽然君外表看来很坚强，但她的内心都像一般人那么的脆弱。 君曾经问过我，我们应该选择一个爱我们的人，还是选择一个我们爱的人呢？虽然我回答了她，我们是该选择一个爱我们的人，因为至少我们不会轻易被伤害。 但是， 女生啊，说的话往往都是在欺骗自己，女生就是那么的感性，也因为这样女人常常都是最伤的。值得庆幸的是，幸亏那个笨蛋在紧要关头向君表白了，否则君肯定会放弃， 而接受那位好好先生。我太了解君的性格，无论她是多么地喜欢那个笨蛋，她都不会是主动开口说的那一个。还好，那个笨蛋在对的时间做出对的决定，不然我相信君肯定会很不开心。好啦，希望君能幸福，开开心心，因为她是我最要好的朋友。

还有两天就新年了，期望已久的日子终于要到了，希望大家平平安安，开开心心过个年。也希望，我们俩的考试成绩可以通过， 顺利毕业。过了年，我将会展开新的生活，踏出社会，为我和他的将来奋斗。 我♡他！

p.s : 感冒菌，请你远离我，我还要健健康康地过年的。拜托拜托，感激不尽。

她說

她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨守太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

such a nice song.

I'm Back

Its been a year that i didn't update my blog and now I'm back. Yesterday is my last paper for the degree exam, finally I had ended my degree studies for 1 and half year. There are two feeling that i having now, happy and sad. Happy is because, i do not need to take any exam anymore (maybe), and all my book can throw away. haha... Yet I feel so sad due to i going to separate with my classmate. Today is the farewell for us and Mr Lee had joined us too. Today schedule is totally full. 1st plan is to go k, then we went to penang bowl to bowl. Mr Lee might be very happy because play bowling is his hobby. After bowl, we went to Tambun and eat. 20 dec is lung's birthday, because of he going to back Sarawak at 17, so we plan take a early celebrate with him. beh and da ge went to buy a cake and we celebrate with him at iz's house. We all stay at iz's house and play games. Unfortunately, my mum is not allow me to overnight at there, so he sent me back and go back iz's house again. :'( sigh ...

It been a long time that all of us not play together since the Langkawi trip. Because we all rushing for our coursework and busy for the exam preparation for few months. Finally, its end. I very appreciate that the time we study together, do coursework, play, eat, joke, the time we shoot tat yeh.. hahaha..It's fun that make joke with you all. Thank you all for give me such a good memories. Another 6 hours, iz and janis will fly to singapore for looking the job and also start their honeymoon. Same to my dear, he will go to singapore at 2mrw night. And I will miss them much. For others classmate, when we free, then we go out yam cha. And lung, i will wait u back, waiting for your 'gam puak' ya. haha...

Lastly, all the best to my friends. I love you guys. Hope to see you all soon.

我是失败者

最近"对不起"这三个字一直挂在我嘴边,对他说了无数的"对不起"...我,是个失败者. 对他,我的家人,我的朋友,我的学业,我始终还是个失败者.面对他,我真的不懂怎么控制好我自己的情绪,
我常答应他的事,到现在我还是办不到.因为我的话,伤了他的心,我知道他不怪我,不过我知道他的心一定很不好受.对不起!除了"对不起",还是"对不起""..对不起,因为我,让你很难过,因为我,让你累了!
我该怎样???就连我自己都不晓得该如何去改变,我真不懂该如何去面对他.我只能说,我是一个彻底的失败者!!!

2 oct 2009

happy birthday to my dear...

1 oct 2009

same as usually i wake at 7.30 today ,then waiting him to fetch me go to find johan and tim and ask for help. today is cw due date,until now my report still not yet finish.i was worried about it...after fetch johan and tim we went to mr.pot and continue our cw at there. Then around 1pm we went for our class, luckily pn rosmah know that we all rushing our cw at that moment and she had decided to let us do our cw cos she know we wont concentrate if she having class. Until 5pm, i still left 2 sections of the report not yet complete. So,we had decided go to johan's working place and continue our report. me,him,tim,jun and bear also at there...until 9pm,johan was close the shop,at that moment we had completed our report yet me,him and jun still not yet upload our cw to the uk site. So, we went to johan's hostel and upload the cw. When we upload, suddenly it said server not found, i was started nervous ...and we called ms koo if the server is down then we cant upload the cw then what can we do,she asked us to call ms joanne. but luckily...after few mins our cw was successfully upload. already 10.20pm,then me,him,johan and tim went to food court opposite pcghs there having our dinner. After dinner he drop them bk to their hostel then dropped me. I reach home at 11.20, and he need to take abt 30 mins to reach home..so i was wish he can reach b4 12 bcos tonight after 12am is his birthday....luckily i still can wish him on time...happy birthday dear! last, i want to thank ms koo,johan,tim and him that helping me a lot in my cw.thanks you all!!!