我是失败者

最近"对不起"这三个字一直挂在我嘴边,对他说了无数的"对不起"...我,是个失败者. 对他,我的家人,我的朋友,我的学业,我始终还是个失败者.面对他,我真的不懂怎么控制好我自己的情绪,
我常答应他的事,到现在我还是办不到.因为我的话,伤了他的心,我知道他不怪我,不过我知道他的心一定很不好受.对不起!除了"对不起",还是"对不起""..对不起,因为我,让你很难过,因为我,让你累了!
我该怎样???就连我自己都不晓得该如何去改变,我真不懂该如何去面对他.我只能说,我是一个彻底的失败者!!!

2 oct 2009

happy birthday to my dear...

1 oct 2009

same as usually i wake at 7.30 today ,then waiting him to fetch me go to find johan and tim and ask for help. today is cw due date,until now my report still not yet finish.i was worried about it...after fetch johan and tim we went to mr.pot and continue our cw at there. Then around 1pm we went for our class, luckily pn rosmah know that we all rushing our cw at that moment and she had decided to let us do our cw cos she know we wont concentrate if she having class. Until 5pm, i still left 2 sections of the report not yet complete. So,we had decided go to johan's working place and continue our report. me,him,tim,jun and bear also at there...until 9pm,johan was close the shop,at that moment we had completed our report yet me,him and jun still not yet upload our cw to the uk site. So, we went to johan's hostel and upload the cw. When we upload, suddenly it said server not found, i was started nervous ...and we called ms koo if the server is down then we cant upload the cw then what can we do,she asked us to call ms joanne. but luckily...after few mins our cw was successfully upload. already 10.20pm,then me,him,johan and tim went to food court opposite pcghs there having our dinner. After dinner he drop them bk to their hostel then dropped me. I reach home at 11.20, and he need to take abt 30 mins to reach home..so i was wish he can reach b4 12 bcos tonight after 12am is his birthday....luckily i still can wish him on time...happy birthday dear! last, i want to thank ms koo,johan,tim and him that helping me a lot in my cw.thanks you all!!!

30 Sept 2009

今天一早，我和他去了mcd继续做cw，下午就去上课了。。老师今天没上课，就帮我们检查我们的cw。。。看见他那么努力地问老师，一来我也很开心，因为我感觉到他是会紧张他的cw的，二来我觉得很压力，因为到了今天我还是对cw没有太深入的了解。他问完后，我就立刻去问老师，老师说她没idea怎样帮我改，因为怕改了后，我和他的会是很像，担心marker 改了后说我们俩是copy对方的。那时的我，压力又增了。。。问完后，我，他，johan,tim 一起去吃晚餐了。回到家，一直在想report该怎么写，想着想着，越想就越压力。。。哭了。。一直想不开。。幸亏那时有君和他劝我，给我鼓励，我才振作起来。谢谢你们！过后就继续开工直到深夜两点，终于顶不住了，就去睡了。