压力

很久都没更新了，最近变得很懒惰，无论什么事都一样。。。这几天无论做什么事，心里总是‘闷闷’的，感觉很压力。。。在家人，他，朋友面前，我只能掩饰我闷闷的心情。离coursework要交的时间就只剩三天，我又没头绪该怎么做，到了今天我还没完成，那股压力直压着我，无法呼吸，就连睡都睡不好。。。我知道不只是我有压力，他也一样。。他说不知道该怎样做，就选择了逃避，一天一天地过去了，我一直都在担心他到底能不能完成。我的压力又增了一倍，很辛苦。。昨晚跟他谈了后，他说他会做，到了现在还是没醒。。。难道他就想一直逃避吗？？？我真的很想做我的事，不想要再去理他，但。。。我知道我帮不了他，唯有能做的就是一直催他要做coursework，给他鼓励。其实我真的很想改变他，改变他的生活，很想骂醒他。。不过我还是没做到。。。感觉到很累。。。很累。。。希望可以快点完成我的coursework，让我好好地休息一下。

1st of august

Was few weeks for skipped the update on my blog.
due to i lazy to update...
a raining day today,so sweet to stay at home...nothing to write actually,but nothing to do now so decide to update my blog.haha...
this few weeks really very happy,i glad to meet my classmate,they are fun, especially with him...every week they will plan some activity when the day we din have class. i quite enjoy my college life now, finally 'happiness' is come back to me...i will appreciate what i have now.

8 of july

2day is the 2nd day for my class, already recognise all my classmate, they all r fun...all r good! luckily having them,if not my college will be so boring...2day after class ,we went to ate our lunch at the segi area...1st time went there, the noodles ...erm ...the taste is ok only... i think i prefer eat at segi cafe. after finish our lunch, we went to lab to discuss our tutorial, is not easy to study degree...stressful at all!!! sigh....finally finish our discussion, is time to back...but my dad told me he will be late,luckily Song Keat said he do to fetch me...haha...this funny guy quite cute,and fun too...anyway,thanks for fetch me back! chow for now...

等待的一天

今天一整天都在等，不知道为何要等，也不知道为了什么而等。。。一直盲目地等，反正就是想继续等到就是了。。。很失望的是，从早上等到现在还是等不到。。。究竟是发生了什么事，我也不懂。。。心一直在慌，很乱。。今天感觉到等待是一种很累的事，虽然有时会觉得透不过气来，不过我还是坚持地等，因为我不想让我自己再次觉得遗憾。

明天终于开学了，感觉没什么好兴奋的，只觉得没有了君他们，去上课好像没什么意义似的。真的很想念和他们一起上课的日子。。。希望今天以后的我可以好好地专注我的学业，不再让自己胡思乱想，就让一切都顺其自然。

美丽的天使

刚刚上youtube 听歌时，无意间看到许玮伦车祸的新闻。还记得两年前的一月二十八日在娱乐头条看见了许玮伦车祸抢救不治的新闻，当时的我真的很惊讶，很难过也很难接受。。。没想到老天难么快就把美丽的天使给带走了，真叫人遗憾。。。虽然之前没特别地去留意许玮伦的新闻，不过每当在报纸上看见她的新闻，总是让我有种感觉，那种感觉就像一种。。。唔。。。很亲切的感觉似的。现在玮伦已成为了我的回忆，而这个回忆永远都存在。祝福她。。。

20 JUNE 2009

yesterday my best fren mc was back from singapore, but sadly she only back to celebrate father's day with her daddy and she will back singapore tonight. 昨日一别，不知何时才能相聚。i know this few words very 'lou tou' but that's true..sigh.....besides that,li told me that she get U at terengganu, and she had decided to go there. no doubt for me to advise her to stay at penang anymore once she had make the decision. i felt very sad recently all my frens are going to leave me soon, although i know that they are going to study and will back on holiday....however, there are a distance 2 us...sigh ...i guess i will miss them crazy.

yesterday me,li accompany pik went to sentral college to ask for the education course,then we planned to find mc and have our lunch there. after that we went to mc's house, i think i have been a period of time didn't go there. we help li to wrote down the things she wants to bring and buy to terengganu, and asked ling fetch us go sunshine farlim. ling drove like crazy, 1st time seat her car and we all scream like carzy. i tell to myself, i wont seat her car anymore coz i not yet buy insurance...lolz....

3 hours ago, finally we had finished bought our thing...wuhh..tired...we spent a lot at there...
:( after that we decided to go our dinner . when having our dinner, i saw all of them having their own problem which is related to their studies,yet me too...and i told them that i miss the time at secondary school, during that time,we all like siao kia, never think so much, never to face the studies problem, never ever so depressed...i miss the moment definitely and i wish to go back to that moment.. however, we had grew up, and we all know we need to face a lot of problem in future , and this is the time to let us plan and learn to face it. lastly,i hope all of them and me can manage it and make a right correct decision.

guys, no wonder how far we are, i believe our relationship will not change, i miss u all.

我想说的话

看了君的博客后，有些话很想说。。我能了解一个人独自在外面自己生活，所有东西都须自己独立撑。有时撑得很辛苦，想找个人诉苦都没有。。。这种感觉真的不好受。君说得没错，一个坚强，独立的人往往都会比普通人更加辛苦。

我承认我不是一个独立形的人，所以我为我自己做出一个对的决定，无论怎样我都不会后悔。如果一个人对自己的决定而后悔，那我可以很确定的告诉他人，在不久以后他/她肯定会放弃自己所做的选择，自己的前途。

身为你的好友，我能做的事情就是借我一双耳朵，好好地聆听你的酸，甜，苦，乐。。。虽然现在我们生活在不同的地方，不过每天只要花那短短的几分钟，我们就能知道彼此的事情，跟了解彼此的生活。我很清楚现在的社会很难会找到知己，很难会找到对自己真心真意的好朋友，不过在我的人生里，我找到了，我很开心我也很珍惜。。。虽然有时你们有问题我帮不上忙，不过当你们想找人谈时，我永远都是那个随时都可借出我的一双耳朵的朋友。

你们要坚强！！！要记得，‘先苦后甜’这四个字，那么你们就会活得更好。