Hopeless

Last week i was went for my 1st job interview in my life. Actually everything has been in well planned, my transport, my salary usage...all gone! :'( 2 days ago, my bro in law told me, he had talk to his boss about my salary and his boss was actually decide to take up me on this position. However, yesterday a bad news that i get from him was that ppl which want to resign is still under contract, he cant resign unless he compensate for company. My bro in law told me, he and his boss already approve to let him resign, but another boss deny. Because of him, my plan is gone, my hope is hopeless. I was pissed off, why every time the same case was happen on me, they gimme a hope, but the result i get is hopeless. sigh ~ what to do?!! now noone i can rely anymore, i just have to apply other job by myself. when only i can get a job? ! I really don't know, i don't want to waste my time to stay at home everyday and do nothing. I want to learn something, i just want to get some experience, i want to fight for my future because i was getting older soon.

chow for now... :(

感触

很开心，君君终于得赏所愿，有情人终成眷属。。。希望他会好好保护她，不要伤害她。 虽然君外表看来很坚强，但她的内心都像一般人那么的脆弱。 君曾经问过我，我们应该选择一个爱我们的人，还是选择一个我们爱的人呢？虽然我回答了她，我们是该选择一个爱我们的人，因为至少我们不会轻易被伤害。 但是， 女生啊，说的话往往都是在欺骗自己，女生就是那么的感性，也因为这样女人常常都是最伤的。值得庆幸的是，幸亏那个笨蛋在紧要关头向君表白了，否则君肯定会放弃， 而接受那位好好先生。我太了解君的性格，无论她是多么地喜欢那个笨蛋，她都不会是主动开口说的那一个。还好，那个笨蛋在对的时间做出对的决定，不然我相信君肯定会很不开心。好啦，希望君能幸福，开开心心，因为她是我最要好的朋友。

还有两天就新年了，期望已久的日子终于要到了，希望大家平平安安，开开心心过个年。也希望，我们俩的考试成绩可以通过， 顺利毕业。过了年，我将会展开新的生活，踏出社会，为我和他的将来奋斗。 我♡他！

p.s : 感冒菌，请你远离我，我还要健健康康地过年的。拜托拜托，感激不尽。

她說

她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨守太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

such a nice song.

I'm Back

Its been a year that i didn't update my blog and now I'm back. Yesterday is my last paper for the degree exam, finally I had ended my degree studies for 1 and half year. There are two feeling that i having now, happy and sad. Happy is because, i do not need to take any exam anymore (maybe), and all my book can throw away. haha... Yet I feel so sad due to i going to separate with my classmate. Today is the farewell for us and Mr Lee had joined us too. Today schedule is totally full. 1st plan is to go k, then we went to penang bowl to bowl. Mr Lee might be very happy because play bowling is his hobby. After bowl, we went to Tambun and eat. 20 dec is lung's birthday, because of he going to back Sarawak at 17, so we plan take a early celebrate with him. beh and da ge went to buy a cake and we celebrate with him at iz's house. We all stay at iz's house and play games. Unfortunately, my mum is not allow me to overnight at there, so he sent me back and go back iz's house again. :'( sigh ...

It been a long time that all of us not play together since the Langkawi trip. Because we all rushing for our coursework and busy for the exam preparation for few months. Finally, its end. I very appreciate that the time we study together, do coursework, play, eat, joke, the time we shoot tat yeh.. hahaha..It's fun that make joke with you all. Thank you all for give me such a good memories. Another 6 hours, iz and janis will fly to singapore for looking the job and also start their honeymoon. Same to my dear, he will go to singapore at 2mrw night. And I will miss them much. For others classmate, when we free, then we go out yam cha. And lung, i will wait u back, waiting for your 'gam puak' ya. haha...

Lastly, all the best to my friends. I love you guys. Hope to see you all soon.

我是失败者

最近"对不起"这三个字一直挂在我嘴边,对他说了无数的"对不起"...我,是个失败者. 对他,我的家人,我的朋友,我的学业,我始终还是个失败者.面对他,我真的不懂怎么控制好我自己的情绪,
我常答应他的事,到现在我还是办不到.因为我的话,伤了他的心,我知道他不怪我,不过我知道他的心一定很不好受.对不起!除了"对不起",还是"对不起""..对不起,因为我,让你很难过,因为我,让你累了!
我该怎样???就连我自己都不晓得该如何去改变,我真不懂该如何去面对他.我只能说,我是一个彻底的失败者!!!

2 oct 2009

happy birthday to my dear...

1 oct 2009

same as usually i wake at 7.30 today ,then waiting him to fetch me go to find johan and tim and ask for help. today is cw due date,until now my report still not yet finish.i was worried about it...after fetch johan and tim we went to mr.pot and continue our cw at there. Then around 1pm we went for our class, luckily pn rosmah know that we all rushing our cw at that moment and she had decided to let us do our cw cos she know we wont concentrate if she having class. Until 5pm, i still left 2 sections of the report not yet complete. So,we had decided go to johan's working place and continue our report. me,him,tim,jun and bear also at there...until 9pm,johan was close the shop,at that moment we had completed our report yet me,him and jun still not yet upload our cw to the uk site. So, we went to johan's hostel and upload the cw. When we upload, suddenly it said server not found, i was started nervous ...and we called ms koo if the server is down then we cant upload the cw then what can we do,she asked us to call ms joanne. but luckily...after few mins our cw was successfully upload. already 10.20pm,then me,him,johan and tim went to food court opposite pcghs there having our dinner. After dinner he drop them bk to their hostel then dropped me. I reach home at 11.20, and he need to take abt 30 mins to reach home..so i was wish he can reach b4 12 bcos tonight after 12am is his birthday....luckily i still can wish him on time...happy birthday dear! last, i want to thank ms koo,johan,tim and him that helping me a lot in my cw.thanks you all!!!

30 Sept 2009

今天一早，我和他去了mcd继续做cw，下午就去上课了。。老师今天没上课，就帮我们检查我们的cw。。。看见他那么努力地问老师，一来我也很开心，因为我感觉到他是会紧张他的cw的，二来我觉得很压力，因为到了今天我还是对cw没有太深入的了解。他问完后，我就立刻去问老师，老师说她没idea怎样帮我改，因为怕改了后，我和他的会是很像，担心marker 改了后说我们俩是copy对方的。那时的我，压力又增了。。。问完后，我，他，johan,tim 一起去吃晚餐了。回到家，一直在想report该怎么写，想着想着，越想就越压力。。。哭了。。一直想不开。。幸亏那时有君和他劝我，给我鼓励，我才振作起来。谢谢你们！过后就继续开工直到深夜两点，终于顶不住了，就去睡了。

压力

很久都没更新了，最近变得很懒惰，无论什么事都一样。。。这几天无论做什么事，心里总是‘闷闷’的，感觉很压力。。。在家人，他，朋友面前，我只能掩饰我闷闷的心情。离coursework要交的时间就只剩三天，我又没头绪该怎么做，到了今天我还没完成，那股压力直压着我，无法呼吸，就连睡都睡不好。。。我知道不只是我有压力，他也一样。。他说不知道该怎样做，就选择了逃避，一天一天地过去了，我一直都在担心他到底能不能完成。我的压力又增了一倍，很辛苦。。昨晚跟他谈了后，他说他会做，到了现在还是没醒。。。难道他就想一直逃避吗？？？我真的很想做我的事，不想要再去理他，但。。。我知道我帮不了他，唯有能做的就是一直催他要做coursework，给他鼓励。其实我真的很想改变他，改变他的生活，很想骂醒他。。不过我还是没做到。。。感觉到很累。。。很累。。。希望可以快点完成我的coursework，让我好好地休息一下。

1st of august

Was few weeks for skipped the update on my blog.
due to i lazy to update...
a raining day today,so sweet to stay at home...nothing to write actually,but nothing to do now so decide to update my blog.haha...
this few weeks really very happy,i glad to meet my classmate,they are fun, especially with him...every week they will plan some activity when the day we din have class. i quite enjoy my college life now, finally 'happiness' is come back to me...i will appreciate what i have now.

8 of july

2day is the 2nd day for my class, already recognise all my classmate, they all r fun...all r good! luckily having them,if not my college will be so boring...2day after class ,we went to ate our lunch at the segi area...1st time went there, the noodles ...erm ...the taste is ok only... i think i prefer eat at segi cafe. after finish our lunch, we went to lab to discuss our tutorial, is not easy to study degree...stressful at all!!! sigh....finally finish our discussion, is time to back...but my dad told me he will be late,luckily Song Keat said he do to fetch me...haha...this funny guy quite cute,and fun too...anyway,thanks for fetch me back! chow for now...

等待的一天

今天一整天都在等，不知道为何要等，也不知道为了什么而等。。。一直盲目地等，反正就是想继续等到就是了。。。很失望的是，从早上等到现在还是等不到。。。究竟是发生了什么事，我也不懂。。。心一直在慌，很乱。。今天感觉到等待是一种很累的事，虽然有时会觉得透不过气来，不过我还是坚持地等，因为我不想让我自己再次觉得遗憾。

明天终于开学了，感觉没什么好兴奋的，只觉得没有了君他们，去上课好像没什么意义似的。真的很想念和他们一起上课的日子。。。希望今天以后的我可以好好地专注我的学业，不再让自己胡思乱想，就让一切都顺其自然。

美丽的天使

刚刚上youtube 听歌时，无意间看到许玮伦车祸的新闻。还记得两年前的一月二十八日在娱乐头条看见了许玮伦车祸抢救不治的新闻，当时的我真的很惊讶，很难过也很难接受。。。没想到老天难么快就把美丽的天使给带走了，真叫人遗憾。。。虽然之前没特别地去留意许玮伦的新闻，不过每当在报纸上看见她的新闻，总是让我有种感觉，那种感觉就像一种。。。唔。。。很亲切的感觉似的。现在玮伦已成为了我的回忆，而这个回忆永远都存在。祝福她。。。

20 JUNE 2009

yesterday my best fren mc was back from singapore, but sadly she only back to celebrate father's day with her daddy and she will back singapore tonight. 昨日一别，不知何时才能相聚。i know this few words very 'lou tou' but that's true..sigh.....besides that,li told me that she get U at terengganu, and she had decided to go there. no doubt for me to advise her to stay at penang anymore once she had make the decision. i felt very sad recently all my frens are going to leave me soon, although i know that they are going to study and will back on holiday....however, there are a distance 2 us...sigh ...i guess i will miss them crazy.

yesterday me,li accompany pik went to sentral college to ask for the education course,then we planned to find mc and have our lunch there. after that we went to mc's house, i think i have been a period of time didn't go there. we help li to wrote down the things she wants to bring and buy to terengganu, and asked ling fetch us go sunshine farlim. ling drove like crazy, 1st time seat her car and we all scream like carzy. i tell to myself, i wont seat her car anymore coz i not yet buy insurance...lolz....

3 hours ago, finally we had finished bought our thing...wuhh..tired...we spent a lot at there...
:( after that we decided to go our dinner . when having our dinner, i saw all of them having their own problem which is related to their studies,yet me too...and i told them that i miss the time at secondary school, during that time,we all like siao kia, never think so much, never to face the studies problem, never ever so depressed...i miss the moment definitely and i wish to go back to that moment.. however, we had grew up, and we all know we need to face a lot of problem in future , and this is the time to let us plan and learn to face it. lastly,i hope all of them and me can manage it and make a right correct decision.

guys, no wonder how far we are, i believe our relationship will not change, i miss u all.

我想说的话

看了君的博客后，有些话很想说。。我能了解一个人独自在外面自己生活，所有东西都须自己独立撑。有时撑得很辛苦，想找个人诉苦都没有。。。这种感觉真的不好受。君说得没错，一个坚强，独立的人往往都会比普通人更加辛苦。

我承认我不是一个独立形的人，所以我为我自己做出一个对的决定，无论怎样我都不会后悔。如果一个人对自己的决定而后悔，那我可以很确定的告诉他人，在不久以后他/她肯定会放弃自己所做的选择，自己的前途。

身为你的好友，我能做的事情就是借我一双耳朵，好好地聆听你的酸，甜，苦，乐。。。虽然现在我们生活在不同的地方，不过每天只要花那短短的几分钟，我们就能知道彼此的事情，跟了解彼此的生活。我很清楚现在的社会很难会找到知己，很难会找到对自己真心真意的好朋友，不过在我的人生里，我找到了，我很开心我也很珍惜。。。虽然有时你们有问题我帮不上忙，不过当你们想找人谈时，我永远都是那个随时都可借出我的一双耳朵的朋友。

你们要坚强！！！要记得，‘先苦后甜’这四个字，那么你们就会活得更好。

night at the musuem II

kahmunrah

Night at the Museum 2!!!

I've been waiting for this movie for so long!!!

yesterday i went for this movie,

the movie it it was like AWSOME

especially when those little romans and

cowbows jumped on the harrier jump jet models

and had a little attack run,

i love it.

The movie was damn hilarious.

You guys should watch it!

四大天王

the 3rd resemble to jay,i love it

continue

birthday cake

three of us

we are going to seperate soon,miss u guys so much...

hope when free we can meet again,

keep in touch.

5 MAY 2009

this tuesday,after jun finished her last exam paper then she called me and we went to red box..unexpected they were gimme a big suprise...btw,i very happy and thanks for them which gimme a nice day bcos i never think this year birthday i can pass with my frens and receive some lovely present too...so touch..thanks,guys...

2 years ago,i pass my birthday in NS camp,sure u all will think i am very pityful right?but u're wrong...i still remember that night when i finished a talk ,i going to slp...i think the time is around 12 something,and all dom hv 2 switch off the light b4 12am .Suddenly........all my dom frens wake up and sang the birthday song 2 me.....emi,kakak mariam,tirah bought me the flowers...it was so touch ....and that day is saturday,my parents were visit me on that day and my mum told me my sis bought me a cake,the cake very delicious !!!perhaps i have been so long din eat cake after go to the camp.

miss my NS frens much...however,now i had lost all their contact number..hope they can contact me soon...sigh...

P.S

*55*

i cant find it when i went to genting

anyway,thanks ya,jun

sista gimme a angpau,siok 2 receive money

another 2 is chan and sk gave 1

*the other pic will be post soon*

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sista's new house

jz now me,mum,sis and naughty B went to

my sis's new house,

my sis is going to shift on next week,

so we went to take a look...

after her bf(will be husband soon) clean up their house,

finally we reach and hv a comfort environment

to let me take a rest...

and i had take some photo...

living room

kitchen...wei y u sit there?chao B :p

master room

my room..hehe

bathroom

u again???swt...

siao kia...nthg 2 play liao hor

me also start wu liao liao

mum too...hehe

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